dirty little secrets

2011-03-23T13:31:00.001-07:00

2011-03-23T13:22:00.000-07:00

fact#

2011-03-20T12:58:00.001-07:00

-______-

2011-03-20T12:56:00.000-07:00

sometimes i ask myself, “what the hell am i doing with my life?” because everyone else seems to know exactly what they want, what they need, where they’re going and how to get there. and i’m just stuck here, right in the middle of two paths that lead to nowhere. it doesn’t even matter which path i take because i’ll always wonder what would have happened if i took the other path. i’m tired of the destination and i haven’t even started the journey.

fact#

2011-03-20T12:19:00.001-07:00

CLOSE FRIENDS FIGHTING.

2011-03-20T12:11:00.000-07:00

you guys have went through so much together. there are times when you guys love each other so much, but then there are times when you have strong dislikes for one another. it’s pretty much how a friendship goes. your friend isn’t perfect, nor are you. you will have serious arguments that “end” your friendship. is it worth losing your best friend? is it worth talking shit? is it worth leaving behind someone who you spent so much time with? you know you miss them

love of my life

2011-02-24T16:50:00.001-08:00

mom and dad, i love you so much

have a safe trip to bali ,Happy 25th anni !

and bon voyage to me

im going to meet Maher Zain, wuhuuu

off to airport ~

silly dilly

2011-02-23T15:31:00.001-08:00

vampire kiss

2011-02-20T00:49:00.000-08:00

you're so addictive , it makes me want more and more of you.

im addicted;

i miss being in a relationship

2011-02-03T10:31:00.000-08:00

I miss those midnight conversations. I miss how you would make me laugh out of my own frustration. But you just come to know that you get so used to being loved, and in one second it can all come crashing down. Now I know to not let anything get that far ever again, because I didn’t know how I could wake up one morning and have it all hit me.

I didn’t know I could miss you this much.

no grenades for ya

2011-01-31T19:23:00.001-08:00

Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did.
To give me all your love is all I ever asked.

New York Xity

2011-01-31T08:14:00.001-08:00

de reason why im still smilling and laughing today ; is because of them.

nurul lyana nyx, happy 19th birthday baby, may god bless you with good health and wealth.

i love you ;)

2011-01-25T09:52:00.000-08:00

Nothing even worse than knowing your crush has a feeling with one of your closest friend.

You have changed

2011-01-11T23:12:00.000-08:00

Can't help it, I miss you so much.. Still waiting for your text.tomorrows de day, good luck to me !

2011-01-10T01:07:00.000-08:00

Pardon me for not living up to your standards ;(

your world and my world, they're not de same

2011-01-07T03:08:00.001-08:00

and so.... i received a call from ktp hospital that my name have been shortlisted for de job i applied for,which is under PSA,yeah thats what i've been wanting for. syukur alhamdullilah that they actually called me up one day after i applied it. or else i have to wait for 2 freaking weeks for them to call up.. so my interview with them will be next thursday as early as 10am , lucky theres plenty of time for me to prepare myself :D

2011-01-04T12:05:00.001-08:00

There’s always going to be those moments when you walk by a person and remember everything you had.

it hurts. the fact that you used to be so close to that person, and now you walk past each other like strangers. even though you were the one trying to make an effort to keep your relationship stable, things dont always work that way. no matter how much we want to choose the people we want in our lives, it just doesnt work that way and we should just except it. someone or something even better will soon come along, even if its a repeat. they will all be stepping stones. stepping stones we will always have to deal with and live with for as long as we are here.

Mockingbird

2010-12-30T12:21:00.000-08:00

Yeah
I know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right now
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What you crying about?
You got me

Hailie I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad
Well I'm gone but I'm trying to give you the life that I never had
I can see you're sad, even when you smile, even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry
Cause you're scared, I ain't there?
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more crying, wipe them tears
Daddy's here, no more nightmares
We gon' pull together through it, we gon' do it
Laney uncles crazy, ain't he?
Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins, when it swirls
When it whirls, when it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Lookin' puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusing you
Daddy's always on the move, mamma's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems
The harder that I try to do that, the more it backfires on me
All the things growing up his daddy that he had to see
Daddy don't want you to see but you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way, your mother and me
But things have gotten so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be when we was teenagers
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is
But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream

[Chorus]
Now hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upper lip up little lady, I told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But I promise momma's gon' be alright

It's funny
I remember back one year when daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
And stuck 'em under the tree and said some of 'em were from me
Cause daddy couldn't buy 'em
I'll never forget that Christmas I sat up the whole night crying
Cause daddy felt like a bum, see daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broken into and robbed
Or shot up on the block and your mom was saving money for you in a jar
Tryna start a piggy bank for you so you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars till someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your momma's heart
And it seemed like everything was just startin' to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguin' a lot so momma moved back
On the Chalmers in the flat one bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 Mile on Novara
And that's when daddy went to California with his CD and met Dr. Dre
And flew you and momma out to see me
But daddy had to work, you and momma had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the T.V. and momma didn't like it
And you and Laney were to young to understand it
Papa was a rollin' stone, momma developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
Cause all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I'm sitting in this empty house, just reminiscing
Lookin' at your baby pictures, it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown, it's almost like you're sisters now
Wow, guess you pretty much are and daddy's still here
Laney I'm talkin' to you too, daddy's still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It's got a ring to it don't it?
Shh, momma's only gone for the moment

[Chorus]

And if you ask me too
Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird
I'mma give you the world
I'mma buy a diamond ring for you
I'mma sing for you
I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
I'mma break that birdies neck
I'll go back to the jeweler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat don't fuck with dad (haha)

this is one of my favourite eminem's song,MockingBird.although its an old song, i would still love it and will never get used to it.i will listen to it over and over again. and sometimes i found myself crying while listening to this song. its just too meaningful for me..i mean, just look at de lyrics.its a sad yet beautiful song. and his daughters, oh myy .. cute & wonderful :) songs for today will be this.

USS

2010-12-28T14:48:00.001-08:00

When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.

im going out of singapore for a few days, going batam i think ?

my parents is having a long holidays !

woohooo

massage baby !

low-self-esteem

2010-12-27T11:05:00.001-08:00

which is which

2010-12-24T11:55:00.001-08:00

wedding bells

2010-12-22T09:40:00.001-08:00

Congrats to Kak Lynn & Abg Faizal on your amazing wedding !

everything went pretty well smooth,alhamdullilah. glad that everyone was happy !

i loveee my cousins

anddd guess who got de bouquet flower thrown by de bride ? ? ?

HAHAHAH :D

LOL

HAHAHAAHAHA

tu lah tangan gatal lagi nak catch de flowers . lols

was forced to take pictures at pelamin together.. hahaha

so paisey ! malu like #!$%^*%$#

lepas ni aku boleh kahwin ehhh ?

hahahahahahha
whatever ~
seriously whatever ~

fireflys !

2010-12-21T10:43:00.000-08:00

im back, im home . enjoyed !

taknak balik singapore

2010-12-15T17:47:00.000-08:00

im done packing my luggage . damn it took me one whole day to packed it ..im still sick.fever and major headache,fcuk.. im left with 3hrs to go. got to go noww.. will be back !

why are you acting and treating me this way ?

why i felt that you've changed ? alot.

sigh ~ bon voyage hany natasha .

creampie

2010-12-14T02:28:00.001-08:00

found thisssssss at daiso . naiseee

im .craving . for .cream pie

broken fingers

2010-12-11T11:32:00.001-08:00

sooo,i gave away my zoukout tics to my friend since hes been dying for it.wanted to give my brahh in de first place but how amazing,i cant believe it when he said " malas uh.da penat..pergi sana pun tkde pape" haha ! i did even asked him for de second time " are you sure? im giving this ticket for free you know? taknak tengok tiesto and guetta ?" LOL, eventually he said NO.alhamdullilah ! .. so since everyone is going zoukout, me and my family had a better plans. yeahh much much more better than going ZOOout,haha. we went bowling (Y) . we had so much fun though im having my menses cramps and my moodswing behaved like a bitch earlier on. neverthless i really enjoyed today.. its going 4am now, i need to sleep.my fingers are broken,HAHA..and i dont feel good right now. having flu and i think fever is attacking me. urm okay goodnight bloggers and zoukout-ians,have fun there ! SNTD :D

i miss my long hair

2010-12-10T07:05:00.000-08:00

NAISEEE !

hair ..keep growing please.

xoxo

2010-12-09T19:45:00.001-08:00

yea,its over.

stress, shop

2010-12-09T06:22:00.000-08:00

my handsome boyfriend (prasan) gave his topshop's staff discount, i loikee

* thank you ! LOL, its weird, i didnt even know him in de first place. but i couldnt stop looking at him, hes just too smexy hot. LOL ..my mum cracked de conversation first and blablabla...and so he gave us his discount.cuz mum bought alot of dresses..for her bali honeymoon later. lol .abang handsome baik hati :) and believe it or not this is my virgin trip to hush puppies, lmfao.kental ..

this is FUN.

wtf

2010-12-08T22:04:00.001-08:00

stranger loves

2010-12-07T21:02:00.000-08:00

(from wikipedia)

Anjaana Anjaani is the story of Kiara, based in San Francisco, while Aakash is a New York City boy. Aakash has got to clear a huge loan of $12 million. Suicide seems the only option to him. He decides to jump off the George Washington Bridge. It is when he bumps into Kiara; who is also bound to commit suicide because she caught her fiance Kunal cheating on her. They both try to put an end to their lives but they deterred by the coastguards. Then Aakash deliberately gets hit by a car and Kiara falls on the bridge and breaks her neck. However they are hospitalized and both get to know each other. They both try to kill themselves five times, try asphyxiating each other, but it doesn't happen anytime. They decide to end their lives on 31st of December. With 20 days to go, they decide to fulfill their unfinished wishes and thus begins their journey. The both do stuff like swimming in the middle of Atlantic Ocean, partying etc. They venture out to Las Vegas on a holiday and kissed then slept together. That is when they realize that they love each other but none of them confesses. On Aakash's insistence, Kiara moves back with her parents and gives Kunal a second chance, while Aakash moves in with his friend and colleague and decides to go back to India and start afresh, on the night of December 31st. He attends the bank settlement and makes up with his friends with whom he was at loggerheads. On the 31st, Kiara realizes that she was totally in love with Aakash and Kunal drops her to the airport to go to the same bridge where both Kiara and Aakash had decided to meet on the night of 31st of December to finally end their lives. Kiara reaches the bridge and doesn't finds Aakash and thinks she will never see him again. Just then Aakash arrives and proposes to her and she accepts, then they kiss each other..When the titles are shown, pictures of their marriage and first child comes up. Then they live happily ever after

i decided to watch all de hindustan movies given free from Mio Tv , and i think of all de movies, this is de best one.really . sucha an interesting movie i must say. shall give it a rate of 9/10 thumbs up.. it made my day ! i can watch this movie for more than 5 times..soo romantic ! lol :D

‎"Kunal or Akash ?HAHAHA, siapa handsome ? you choose siapa ? LOL.. kelakarrrr.

macam boleh dapat -.- "

im hany, not barbie doll

2010-12-06T10:09:00.000-08:00

(just a picture)

You have your friends, you have your girlfriendss. why even bother about me. i know you care for me.but , care only when you really mean it.NOT when you're bored. im not your toys to kill your boredom.Im just like other girls. i do have feelings,i do fall in love(yet to find de right one)...and all i think was,you took me for granted,im just like your "serviette".use me when you need to clean,throw me when im dirty. ridiculous much ? yes. thats what im thinking towards you. yes you, de guy who will be reading this sooner or later.i guess..argh, heartbroken.period. to whoever out there who have texted me earlier, its not that i dont want to reply. i just dont wish to . and dont need to,i think ? its useless,meaning-less . pardon me for behaving like this, no offence i just dont like it,de way you treated me like this..this feeling sucks,be it mentally or physically .its just s-u-c-k-s. i just lost someone i love and look-ed forward to. i miss him so much and its killing me..im sick. im having high fever and major headache right now. i have taken bunch of medicines.from liquid to panadols.which mostly im depending on panadols right now,just to make me feel a lil bit better and brain-released.but half an hour later,back to square one.BRAIN-SQUEEZINGG .tskk ! whatever it is,wish a speedy recovery to myself,insya'allah

and now its time for me to swallow a panadol and off to sleep,damnn

my brain gonna burst,anytime soon

goodnight netizens !

just a dream

2010-12-05T21:22:00.001-08:00

i was thinking about him,thinking about me,thinking about us

what we gonna be ?

Jingle bells all de wayyy !

2010-12-05T00:06:00.000-08:00

Like finally ! i have received my package this morning (Y)

and soo,i went to town with momsie again,yeah just de two of us.we went shopping (again).i wanted to get de Juicy Couture perfume but this beautiful santa bought meVersace perfume and a Paris Bijoux necklace from Swaroski instead. 2 is better than 1,right ?and not only that. it comes along with de Versace Luggage Bag too, awwww man !im left with 11 days to fly off from here,(then aku boleh step rabak gi travelling dengan tu luggage,LOL ) mummy, i love you . thanks for everythingggg ,alhamdulilah .

i promise to be good

which im already am :D hehs

shasha santa

2010-12-03T05:15:00.001-08:00

Dear Santa , this , in RED please.

i like you ,i've been keeping it to myself

2010-12-02T09:42:00.000-08:00

I’m just afraid that by the time you realized I have always been the right one,

I’ve already run out of passion and strength to love again.

because a girl has got to love herself

2010-11-30T07:28:00.000-08:00

:P

2010-11-29T05:35:00.001-08:00

i love headbands !

2010-11-28T20:42:00.001-08:00

and soooo, i did some shopping spree with momsie yesterday , lol

too bad, i couldnt resist mom's offer .

initial plan was just to accompany her shopping,yes only her (cross finger*)

sarang hae yo

2010-11-28T01:25:00.001-08:00

off to town with momsie !

my Dear, your health is improving, alhamdullilah .

happy sunday lovelies :)

im blessed

2010-11-26T03:58:00.000-08:00

Dear Diary, Im GAY, very !

i might be going Bali on march-arpil 2011 . like finally ?!

been wanting to go though.. mom and dad is already busy looking out for resort/hotel and some attractions there.i knoww,still early right ?!

to hell with it..i hate last minute planning..i can't wait. really !

my dear shasha, lets hope you can come along with us.

love, your nanachi

anyway, since pay is already in,i got myself this Marc J tote bag

will be at my doorstep this coming tuesday, weeeeeee ~

Summer Love

2010-11-23T07:42:00.001-08:00

pure netherland dwarf rabbit

2010-11-21T21:41:00.000-08:00

i really wanna put my hands on this white lionhead dwarf ,really !

i can't wait to save up mayne this dude will cost me 250bucks. D A M N

i have been wanting to keep this as a pet.

its just that its hard to find it in singapore

and now that i have found de shop here,i wanna bring it home ~ sigh ! if only my parents understand how much i have been wanting for this .

but for sure they wont agree if they were to know how much this bunny cost.

i might need to start saving from now on and cut down on my expenses

250bucks for just a bunny ?! its expensiveee

buuttttt i really want it,yes i will buy it . one day ~!! insya'allah .

anyway if you guys wondering why its v expensive,

because this dwarf bunny will remain this size..it will never grow big

( that explains why i really want it so muchh. and im serious . )

and that is when im with you

2010-11-19T08:16:00.001-08:00

I act differently around different people.

Mind you, Im not FAKE .

i just have my comfort zone.

Thats why i only can completely be myself when

im with people im comfortable with .

2010-11-16T15:55:00.001-08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha lovelies !

you never will

2010-11-15T11:22:00.000-08:00

IF YOU DONT UNDERSTAND MY SILENCE,

how will you understand my words ?

should i ?

2010-11-14T10:49:00.000-08:00

well, I do .

baby your one in a million

2010-11-13T12:31:00.001-08:00

I wish there was a more elegant way of saying I miss you.

But for a lack of a better phrase,

I MISS YOU .

pms

2010-11-11T10:34:00.000-08:00

When you call a girl fat or ugly, it’s engraved into her mind.

Every insult will stay with her forever,

reminding her that she’s worthless, disgusting, and unloved.

Her mind will be programmed to put herself down, to hate herself and her body.

Call her pretty? She’ll remember it for a moment.

Call her ugly? She’ll never forget it.

Because she’s a slave to the pain that you never even thought about.

& NO,you dont know what im going through .

cause baby you're a firework

2010-11-08T17:40:00.000-08:00

my dear boyfriend , i love you .

doctors predict, you have less than 7months to live . baby believe me , i know you can make it more than that . i know ~ you are one strong guy now . love you hon :D

Salu ala rasool ellah Habibi el mostafa Peace be upon the messenger the chosen one -maher zain

an impromptu

2010-11-03T01:02:00.001-07:00

well my winter halloween was awesome ! i know its against my religion to actually celebrate halloween right ? but for de sake of "just to have fun with my friends" i dont mind though,its not like i dressed up and stuffs. just went there to have fun and took de thrill off de haunted trail.. kudos to myself lahh , my first time ever i managed to fight my fears.. having phobia in dark places is so not cool ohkay.howell i had so much fun though screaming my lungs out .. de ghosts there is sucha bitch,they came out of nowhere and just grabbed our legs, ish mintak kena wrestling ah dorang. LOL gtg now , i miss home.. its been 2 days here at my baby's cribs. have a good day ! ~

rocher roshey

2010-10-29T10:39:00.001-07:00

And sooo,i've cut my hair, supaaa short .

please don't ask me why !

will be having breakfast at Airport later and Halloween Party at downtown east

with shasha baby at 7pm.

insya'allah :)

Girls & Shoes

2010-10-26T08:52:00.000-07:00

a short update here,this is how i spend my weekends. received a msg from my aunt about de charles n keith warehouse sales, 2 days straight i went there and im very satisfied, got myself these shoes.worth my bucks.because believe it or not all de shoes cost 9freaking bucks each. couldnt tell how excited mom was,she bought alot too. but luckily dads not angry he just said this " lepas ni boleh makan kasut2 ni kay" urm thanks dad .pfft nvm,whateva it is im very happy i loveee all de shoes, i got de wedge i've been wanting for.lol ! shall ask my aunt to update me about this warehouse sales,am sure to go again de next event..heh sukaaaa ~

and so afterwhich on saturday night,we went for prawning again.. it was really fun,this time round we managed to bring back atleast 2kg of TIGER PRAWNS. haha coool aye .

enjoi de pictures

more in fb .

will be going grandmum's cribs tomorrow since i have no plans.

i sayaaaang baby(nenek) i ,you know ?

heh ~

shall update again

assalamualaikum :)

Insya'allah

2010-10-24T20:44:00.001-07:00

" Turn to Allah

He`s never far away

Put your trust in Him

Raise your hands and pray, Ya Allah

Guide my steps don`t let me go astray

You`re the only one that showed me the way "

swasdi ~

2010-10-22T04:45:00.000-07:00

I’m sittin’ here tryin’ to convince myself that you’re not the one for me

But de more I think, de less I believe it and de more I want you here with me

You know de holidays are coming up,I don’t want to spend them alone

Memories of Christmas time with you,will just kill me if I’m on my own

wet thursday

2010-10-18T09:39:00.001-07:00

wildwildwet with de gfs was awesome !

spend my saturday at jurong hill for prawning .. best gilaa ~

was my first time experience though .. shall upload de prawning pictures later.

and as for sunday went over to cousin zizah's cribs for kenduri, her parents will be going haji on de 11th.. alhamdullilah :)

btw will be going to big splash tomorrow with de gfs ..

and i will be cooking something for them

see you tomorrow lovelies ,goodnight !

open your eyes open your mind

2010-10-12T11:31:00.000-07:00

stop with all your ego-shits bro .

seriously ain't cool .

double date with de gfs on thursday, hopefully ! ~

just love

2010-10-11T08:30:00.001-07:00

my dear mummy, get well soon ! you i know i love you very very much .

anyways im done watching 100 episodes of Setinggi Bintang on youtube .

thumbs up , i really like this movie .

jyeahh its all about having childhood friends , making promises when ur still a kid who know nuts about love . after so much of obstacles , they managed to get married in de end . interesting though. this is one of de best indon's movie i've watched so far .

oh well, i do have a childhood friend.. he is someone very special to me

but sadly god loves him more than i do ,

11-10-10 , its been a year baby :)

tuan director, bisa ngak aku ketemu ama Nikita Willy ? LOL

a 13 yr old drop dead gorgeous , i like her ! ~

taste of your lips

2010-10-07T20:22:00.000-07:00

on hiatus , brb yarh ~

happy weekends lovelies !

& i wonder if you eva stop to think, "man,i miss her"

2010-10-02T01:10:00.001-07:00

I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you. How good you look when you smile. How much I love your laugh. I daydream about you off and on, replaying pieces of our conversations; laughing at funny things that you said or did. I’ve memorised your face and the way that you look at me. I catch myself smiling again at what I imagine. I wonder what will happen the next time we are together and even though neither of us know what the future holds, I know one things for sure; you’re the best thing that ever happened to me.

once upon a time

2010-09-28T11:52:00.000-07:00

wedding & enggagement photoshoot

more of it

sorry , only certain people are allowed to view de pictures.

will update again , will not be active on twitter and formspring .

add me in fb if you have tons of questions to ask , thanks.

too funny

2010-09-25T12:26:00.000-07:00

ehh abang gua lepak brooo. lmfao ! ~

sorryy this is too funneh . can't stop laughing looking at this pic.

ni lah akibat nya orang tak tidur malam raya . heh

fcukyeah my poppy coach wristlet from US has arrived here, right infront of my doorstep .

shall do another hiphip huray ?

lol .

ahh , lifes good..

:) love you.

no bragging

2010-09-23T22:57:00.001-07:00

a movie date yesterday with sister zizah , watched Shock Labyrinth 3D.

no,not recommended.fucking lame .not worth your bucks .

iritating sound effects , lamest "teddy bear" i've ever seen .

movie ended at 9pm , got back home .

(thanks for de treat and i love you ziza blackrouge)

an impromptu meet up with edy . waited for him to end his shift at 11pm .

fetched , had supper , kranji dam (mind you, im afraid of dark. this ain't funny.i almost cried)

ice creams , yishun dam , iritating show-off mat mots .

super 6 ? ! (uh uh, baru keluar) wtf confident.

thanks for de night sweety !

4.30 AM - home.

another aromatherapy later on , more and more scented candles please.

im sleepy .

a ring

2010-09-21T12:46:00.000-07:00

I am a princess. All girls are. Even if they live in tiny old attics. Even if they dress in rags, even if they aren’t pretty, or smart, or young. They’re still princesses. All of us.

getting married ?

2010-09-20T10:14:00.001-07:00

lol, tomorrow's plan cancelled .

de movie is no longer showing in cinema .

argh

can i cry ?

hmph.

look at this

wtf, iritating ey ni

C.B

step up 3D

2010-09-20T06:30:00.001-07:00

another movie date tomorrow, hopefully .

be my baby

2010-09-17T13:01:00.000-07:00

as promised, universal studio's pictures.

true

2010-09-16T23:25:00.000-07:00

so i had a 2nd movie date with edy yesterday, watched de resident evil 3D. not bad though.

had dinner after de movie and off to my cribs . played congkak,closed to midnight.

got myself a lemonade , felt better by then

but not now, im feeling super moody.

no, not because of edy .

i just couldnt find de answers .

I ignore texts. I let the phone ring. I log off of Facebook
chat. It’s nothing personal, but people need to realize that sometimes I just
don’t want to talk.

Eid 2010

2010-09-14T13:48:00.000-07:00

AHH so emotional lahhh

MJ , LOL

just a quick update for my 1st day of raya, it was fun though we actually celebrated it at almost 11pm,yes because my dearest grandfather is working on de day itself from 9am in de morning till 10pm.pity much ? pooor atuk. but nvm,atleast we had fun . yadayada,cant believe i still get my duit raya from all my aunties and uncles and even both my grandparents, ish malu lah sayaa. saya da kerja.. hehh tapi tkpe, rezeki jangan ditolak(musuh jangan dicari) hahaa.

i bought a new toy for myself, which is a polaroid camera. im so loving it . dont know why but i love polaroids so much,gonna have a collection for it soon.and believe it or not, we went to de UNIVERSAL STUDIO on de 2nd day of raya, where everyone is busy visiting from houses to houses while, me.. having fun riding de roller coster. hahh...we even got de express tickets, which means we didnt even waste a single minute to queue up for de rides,ahhh feeling feeling V.I.P ? haha lucky me.

hi bloggers, im going to offline now as i have something important to attend to,shall upload de US picasa soonsxzxzx..

salam aidilfitri to all my cupcakes out there !

2010-09-06T00:30:00.000-07:00

Before you judge me, take a good look at you. Don’t you have anything better to do? Seems to me, you’re a little slow to understand that ignorance and jealousy go hand in hand .

4 more days to hari raya, and im glad to say that im still fasting eversince de first day,how great is that ? hopefully it will be full this year, oh come on just 4 more days to go . (jangan hari raya red light sudah,ahh SO CRANKY ! ) urm so i will be busy helping momsie. spring cleaning will be on tomorrow night, not on de malam raya ,de reason is i will be expecting visitors on wednesday night, yayay cant wait for them to reach here . and urm my room is already half done and im satisfied with my own creativity.lols .. will be having toni and guy appointment for my hair as early as 11am tomorrow and im off to cousin ziza's cribs for henna session after that. well dont know why this year raya feel like putting henna on my hands, haha ! am going out after breaking fast today to help my parents buying de kitchen stuffs.. will be buying de soft drinks too and order some cakes and chocolates for de fondue . lastly am so happy that i have found my outfit for raya,yessaahh .like it so much .thanks to momsie to pay for it,hehehe love you ibu .. so jyeah to

adnan mohd ali, if you're reading this just wanna tell you that

i miss you :)

not forgetting i love farina mohd too , lol

f.r.i.e.n.d.s

2010-09-03T12:23:00.000-07:00

so for de past few weeks,i was totally busy with work . and now im free . i've shift to other place,for de sake of me,myself and i . i need a life .i need my weekends,family and i need my friends. so yeahh. kudos hany ! so above are de pictures last tuesday, me,zul and 2 of my pretty cousins headed to geylang to look for my outfit for raya,thanks to me

(perempuan paling cerewet) till now, i still cant decide which outfit,colour i wanna buy,

hee heee.. so mum joined us after that , geylang ? nothing much.still de same.nothing new..

and bloody hell, da lah panas, crowded pulak tu . goshh. TUESDAY ?! orang orang tu semua besok not working or what ? tak tahu penat eh ? makin malam makin ramai ey. sheesh !~

saw a couple of my friends there, including rusydy and his group of friends,lol we were invited to joined them for a shoutout for their online web i think? (dont know lah) all we have to do was to shout as loud as we could, " SELAMAT HARI RAYA WICKEN !~!@! " LOLS, bahan ey ?

hahahah with de crowd looking at us,oh my. cant imagine how i will look like in de video.. shall update ya guys once de video is out at their website, jangan masuk TV sudah ! mampooss, malu macam nak nangis . but whateva it is who cares right ? as long as we had fun.lol nice knowing them though,very friendly .i loike .. heh

enough of that

besides geylang, i went to IKEA yesterday with mum and dad,shopped alot of furniture for my room..hellyeah am gonna makeover my whole room and also i have bought a new fondue or (what ya guys call that?) chocolate fountain machine? yeahh, specially for my dearest friends, yesyes sweet kan aku beli baru nya.pasal yang lama nya tak cukup untuk 10 orang.this year, korang nak telan ke nak mati chocolate ke lantak korang ah k. yang penting korang happy :)

anyhoos, we are back to square one so stop asking why?when?what happened and stuffs okay.

what happened in de past stays in de past,aint gonna brag .

yes, we're doing fine now. although i felt awkard but we're taking things slowly,step by step .

to whoever you are, kalau terasa.. (saya boleh buat apa?) if you have any problem with this, feel free to talk face to face with us . stop being like a 2 year old kid , call sana berbual lain,call sini berbual lain .sorry game tu da basi. udah puas,udah capek dehh .

sorry,i just dont want to hold any grudges between us.

peace

yummylicious

2010-08-30T00:47:00.000-07:00

more and more strawberries puhleasee.

le sigh

2010-08-29T09:03:00.001-07:00

de truth is, 'I LIKE YOU'

this is so unglam

2010-08-16T22:20:00.000-07:00

someone's beautifool girlfriend keeps on adding me in facebook.

rejected alot of times but still keep on adding.

no shame ahh ?

if you wanna add me,add using your own account not by using your friend's please

peace !

happy legal to me

2010-08-11T21:04:00.000-07:00

18th birthday cum Bandung trip was a blast . everything went well,had fun through out de whole journey with a total of 22ppl . it was my 2nd trip and my family planned is to go back to bandung every 8months. so which means dad is planning to buy a villa there,in bandung.. woohooo.. hip hip hurayyy ! now, i can travel to bandung with my friends,need no stress about where to stay once we reached there,lol.. but waiting for another 8 months is too long for me,so i suggested that i will be going for another trip by end of this year,insya'allah if tk ada halangan.. omg,i love bandung,its a very nice place..nice place to shop and stress-free. its like already my 2nd home .lol

thank god and am grateful to have this family, always support me in whereva i wanna travel to and stuffs. sayang semuanya

more pictures in my facebook.. and oh just to share with ya'll ..it was my virgin trip to de "Tankupan Perahu" its a volcanoes place,mind you one of de volcanoe is still active,scarry yet a very beautiful place,SO DAMN COLD. its feels like your in New Zealand,LOL.. tankupan perahu has its history.. wanna find out more ,go google it . shopped alot (for myself only,dont be jealous) hahaha.. im very happy,i get what i want and yes i enjoyed myself .

now back to work baby

happy fasting to all muslims !

pokka dots

2010-07-23T13:22:00.000-07:00

just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that’s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that’s alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

2010-07-19T07:28:00.000-07:00

i want nobody nobody but you *clapclap*

my right hand is very itchy,i mean my right palm

is that a sign of getting money ?

wooo , hopefully .

after so long of not meeting my dearest gf,shasha.. finally we both met during my off day.
only god knows how much i missed her. i miss de fun we had, de laughter and stuffs.

"can i have an unsalted salt instead of unsalted FRIES ?! "

what an idiot, hany ! pfft

am so loving my workplace , whats more.. ifah's workplace is just 3bus stops away from me

can go back together everyday ehhh :)

okay,shall enjoy watching my gossip girl season 3. byebye

M6O babies

2010-07-10T13:34:00.001-07:00

pardon me for de lack of updates, eversince i started working i have no time to update,or maybe im just too lazy..anyway life has been good for me. new job,new colleagues. i have been working so hard for this past 1 week,did alot of OTs and instead of having 2days off a week i decided to work 6days straight,wahaha. cant wait for 6th august,will be flying off to Indonesia, Bandung ( like again ! ) hopefully i will get my pay before i leave singapore so that i have extra extra much bucks + my parents will be giving me money too for shopping at Bandung,huraaay !

anyways, i enjoyed working at M6O,i dont feel tired at all(k bedek) because of de nice and friendly colleagues am working with and not forgetting my supervisor,my in -charge is super gerek and that makes me feel like working there everyday,i dont mind de tired-ness . and yada yada, im so busy working that i didnt even know that my family planned to go for a short holiday to malaysia maybe to KL or Malacca i think and yes here i am,for de very first time i was left all alone in Singapore.. awww im sooo soo saaad. i need my mum :(

neway, am not sure if mums gonna read this or not, whateva it is mum, im sorry,so sorry for what happened between us. i hate PMS, it sucks alot , i didnt mean to leave you all alone behind and just walked off. i did cried de whole night, i cant sleep , i kept thinking of you.i wanted to say sorry to you but didnt had de chance cuz i woke up late and all i knew was, you have gone out early in de morning to ICA building to collect ur passport.. i waited for you to got back home but you were late,so late that i had to make my way to work. i didnt had de chance to meet you for this one whole day, till at around 5pm, i received a msg from you saying " hany, we're going off already"

i know i was rude, i shouldnt have shouted at you yesterday.. you know i love you very much right mum?

i just hope that god will always be with you guys through out de journey to wherever you guys are going to.

be back soon please mum, and dad...

2010-07-01T23:58:00.001-07:00

so far so good, am loving Miss Sixty .

my shop is located just outside de Casino's entrance.

dear tourists, be nice :)

money = travelling

2010-06-28T12:04:00.000-07:00

this is how i spend my last weekends with mum, had a shopping date with her.

from orchard to clark quay to newton to cdan home team for bowling . heh

had fun though its my virgin trip to dine in at de Project Shop. (kental)

de cakes and de pesto is super delicious. woohoo gereksszxz LOL. bye

will be working at Miss Sixty from today onwards .

wish me luck , xo

Masquarade Party

2010-06-25T03:34:00.000-07:00

awesome !

lol

2010-06-23T00:01:00.000-07:00

well,well,well

heeeello PARIS !

sorry for de lack of updates and also privatising this blog, been very busy with life.

plus, ain't got no time to update.

football fever baby

Alba

2010-06-14T16:24:00.000-07:00

as much as i hate it when we dont get de chance to hang out or see each other,i think a SMALL part of me is [insert word here,i dont know what best describes this feeling] that we dont. I feel like de less we hang out together,it wont hurt as much to look you into your eyes and know that we cant be together.behind that smile you see,lies de pain of suppressing my feelings for de sake of our friendship.you mean de world to me and i just wish i was de one for you.

busy

2010-06-08T10:43:00.000-07:00

i CAN do this, im going to make a change, im going to complete things i dream about,

im going to have de courage to make a difference, i think.

2010-06-07T11:17:00.000-07:00

I always made it about me.always.it was just me this and me that.you know what?forget what i think.forget what i feel.forget what i need.forget what i want. FORGET ME.i dont matter anymore. Honestly.this isnt about me anymore.its not even about us.its about YOU and what YOU want for us.i want you to do what you want, regardless of what i want, need, think, or feel. dont even think about me.do what you want to do.because right now…what you want to do is de only thing that matters.do what you think is best for us.please.go do it now.

2010-06-06T10:29:00.000-07:00

I don’t even know why I still even care about you..every time im nice to you, you just seem to use me..but whatever..i dont believe i have any feelings left for you anymore..im just being a good friend because i feel bad for being such a terrible friend before and walking out on you..i just wish you’d just get over me and stop trying to talk to me again..your girlfriend decides she doesn’t want you anymore and now you come crawling back to strike up conversations with me out of nowhere..when you were with her you’d admit your feelings in code.. You really need to stop.. I don’t want to fall for you again! Last time i did that you hurt me.. And now you want to converse with me.. You hardly did that when you were with her..and even though you couldnt admit to still being in love with me..you still managed to leave me all alone.. And now that you’re lonely and want to run to me, I can’t help but smile because I don’t care for you anymore..

on holiday mode.

baby

2010-06-05T09:35:00.000-07:00

my grandmother is 74 years old, thats her, above.wait,i mean thats not really her..that is her younger sister but somehow they look de same,so much of like twins. (will upload her real picture soon)lol .I spent de evening with her today and always enjoy our time together. i love it when everytime my grandparents teased each other,where at times atuk suddenly hugged grandma from behind,that alone sent me a fit of giggles. cute much. Later in de visit,we were in a pharmacy examining a selection of multivitamins.She turned to me, smiled,and hit me with this riddle: “Now, if they say a pill is chewable, does that mean you have to chew it? What if you just swallow it?” I laughed and thought,thats a great question.and I have no idea what de answer is.

my grandma, your my idol . and i love you so much no other grandmas can replace you,same goes to you,atuk . and not forgetting MOM .

before i forget, Happy 29th Birthday Abg Sharil ! may god bless you and thanks for de secret recipe Indulgence cake , aww gawd . you know i love it .

wake up hany !

2010-06-04T01:15:00.000-07:00

look at you ? your are young and you are scared. why are you so scared ? stop being paralyzed. stop swallowing your words. stop caring what other people think. wear what you want. say what you want. listen to de music you want to listen to. play it loud as fuck and dance to it. go out for a drive at midnight and forget that you have school de next day. stop waiting for friday. live now,do it now. take risks.tell secrets. this life is yours. when are you going to realize that you can do whatever you want ?

dream catcher is so cool !

whats yours ?

2010-06-04T00:27:00.000-07:00

I'm best friends with de cookie monster and i love it because i made out with my cousin in de Halloween party last year . HAHA WHAT DE HELL , this is so not true !

2010-06-02T08:46:00.000-07:00

well, i don’t have a fear of commitment.i have a fear of abandonment.we all screw things up,i screw things up.especially with the people i love.i get needy, i get moody, i get distant, i want to be too close. i get confused,i don’t understand all of it. But i keep pushing because i hope in this thing.de universe.theres no way im de only person out there who wants something this bad. If i want it someone else out there must too. right ?

home sweet home baby

2010-06-01T13:10:00.000-07:00

C R Y I N G I S B E A U T I F U L ;

YES, im back in singapore. enjoyed so much,in high heels for 4days straight.

i love EVERLY !

will update again

N Roshey

2010-05-27T09:53:00.001-07:00

GOODBYEEE SINGAPORE !

i can really use a wish right now

2010-05-26T12:56:00.000-07:00

and i miss this .

went out to town with fareena, back home with ifahadams .

will upload de pictures soon ..

1 more day to go , hany natasha .

i melt when im with you

2010-05-25T10:59:00.001-07:00

when you grow up, dont be a matrep okay little brother?

Tahsina Darwisyah, i miss you so much sweetheart :)

2 more days to go baby ~

leftover picasa

2010-05-24T00:11:00.000-07:00

mums birthday celebration was fun,bowlinggg treats . my whole family is into bowling now, haha . no more flying kites, singapore wether = sigh*

well, i have bought some of my clothes for overseas on friday . yes, will be gg overseas for 5days .

anyway, these are de leftover pictures,sorry rief i hope you understand, im beezeh . haha

i miss you rastaman ;

purple nails !

sukaaaaaa~

Happy Birthday Shasha, may god bless you . meet soon okay,

ur presents is with me :)

i love Paris Hilton

2010-05-22T05:38:00.001-07:00

Happy Birthday mummy, i love you.

enjoy de presents ehhh :)

wake up in de morning feeling like p diddy

2010-05-20T00:16:00.000-07:00

i want a new room, new wall colour ,new theme,sigh* just look at de curtain,floral much ?

i want to make my room to look very oldskool,those vintage kinds of room,where i can paste alot of polaroids pictures on de wall, damnn i need a polaroid camera and also a new artpiece

(which means mumdad,i need a new canvas)

and now wheres my paint brushes ? sketchbook ? 234b pencils ? oh gosh , its been ages .

alright and now i have to go get my shower and get ready to meet Ifahadams Dolcevita .